Content overview: “Hunting My First Deer Changed How I See Food, Fat and My Own Body”. For years, the author struggled with a broken relationship with food, marked by control, fear, and regret. At 19, during a family trip to Paris, she found herself sobbing into a pillow, overwhelmed by self-loathing and fantasizing about tearing fat from her body. That moment of despair became a turning point. Later, she decided to hunt her first deer, a deliberate act to confront where food comes from.
The experience of killing, processing, and eating an animal she harvested herself shifted her perspective. She began to see fat not as an enemy but as a source of nourishment, and hunger as a natural signal rather than a threat. By taking responsibility for her meal, she started to heal her relationship with food and her body. The full version stays on the original page, which this listing opens directly.